INTRODUCTION

"Never feel guilty for starting again"-Rupi Kaur, the sun and her flowers.

It's silly that I feel that I've been facing a Writer's block every since. We all know that feeling- typing or scribbling something down and suddenly not liking any of it, It burns inside while you have to erase all of it and start afresh to create something new, something beautiful, something worthy. The loss of creativity, I guess, wreaks you into insecurities- The real question being, does creativity in actuality pack it's bags and leaves you all shattered? Sometimes I guess we try too hard to be "conventionally creative". Sadly, the only thing which is supposed to be unrestricted has to conform to some few popularized ideas.

For me, creativity is Questioning, Understanding, Observing, Trying and finally, Expressing.(QUOTE) I know I just restricted the term by providing an individual definition, but the point here is, that I do not dismiss the ideas of others about the same cause well, I'm no one to do so and for that matter, who is? I believe my definition to be ever evolving.

I am 19 and scared. Scared, but ambitious. It took a lot of courage to begin writing, infact doing something like this over again, cause I'm similar. I'm similar to any other teenager who had some weird teenage years~ you know, the kind where other's opinions take priority and uncontrolled emotions dominate which ultimately lead to a mind block. At times, I wonder if it was only me who seemed to be attached yet detached to everything around. Anyways,
"Past is past, and even the present won't last."

No, this isn't Mark Manson - I am not willing to write self help blogs while claiming that they are not self help and nor am I writing to be another metropolitan fashion blogger expressing their take on the trends. I am writing, so that I can simply write.

The name Nari-cissistic being clearly inspired from two words- "Nari" meaning woman in Hindi and "Narcissistic"  meaning self obsessed highlights my approach, which is in fact, NOT only woman centered cause well, I am a feminist. My understanding of feminism is raw and has strings attached all round with equality, Not being as well read as to claim myself to be a pure "kind" of feminist I find myself closest to being one existential feminist- who simply emphasizes concepts such as freedom, interpersonal relationships, and the experience of living as a human under the umbrella term. 

So, between Existentialism and facing Existential crisis, here, is something by a Nari-cissistic.

Cheers to casual reading!